“No, I don’t hate you. I could never hate you…“ He chewed on the inside of his lip and looked at you. “But you can’t just expect me to wanting to be all friendly to you and pretend like nothing happened.” He sighed when he saw you looking down. “Yes, I am hurt… I’m still trying to find out what have I done so wrong… just do what you think makes more sense to you.”
“Tae, I’m sorry.” He looks up at you, carefully reaching over and taking your hand. “I didn’t want to hurt you. That’s why I did what I did. Because I knew you couldn’t be happy with me. It wasn’t your fault, it was mine. I’m just…not good with relationships. Okay? It wasn’t your fault. When I said I loved you, I meant it. But we rushed, that’s why it didn’t go as well as we hoped.” He smiled gently, pulling his hand back and looking at you. “If you tell me to go, I will. If you tell me to stay, I will.”
He blinked when he suddenly felt you holding his hand, looking at you with his brows slightly furrowed. He listened attentively to what you were saying, then huffing and looking away, his fingers slightly wrapping themselves around your hand. “I-I thought you were ready… you told me you were…” He pressed his lips together and looked at their hands, then pulling his back. “Just…” He felt like he was about to cry and covered his mouth.
He watched you with a small frown. “I thought I was…I really thought I could do it but…I knew I’d hurt you eventually…and you’d hate me. And I couldn’t have that. I couldn’t do that. I thought that…this why you could move on.” When he sees you cover your mouth he stands up, unable to take it anymore as he wraps his arms around you. “I’m sorry. I couldn’t be there for you…I couldn’t be the perfect boyfriend you wanted…I’m sorry Taeminnie…I’m so sorry.” He looked down at you, his fingers gently carding through your hair. “Just please don’t cry…”
